Black Dogs and Early Mornings

Hi.

How’s it going? Long time no talk, right! Not sure if you remember me, I’m the guy who blogs here. Although not lately. I know what you’re thinking: Where the hell have you been?

Well, it has been a while since I’ve posted. I attribute this to two things, which may be related. One is my current job in the city with TAFE NSW; it’s a huge commute between Bargo and the city, and it’s been a hard adjustment. I underestimated how much time this would drain. Don’t get me wrong, I’m still enjoying the challenge that the SMS Project has given me, just tired from the 4:45 am wake up call.

But there’s another reason, one I’ve been reluctant to share. This weekend though, I opened up about it:

So this is probably my worst kept secret; I struggle with chronic depression. I’m not eager to talk about it or share, but I did, and it’s kind of hard not to acknowledge I haven’t written a post in 6 months. I’ve just been feeling melancholy lately. Maybe it’s seasonal, maybe it’s that kind of lull after SMS R2 was delivered, maybe I’m just tired.

Please don’t stress about it; I didn’t want to acknowledge it, but you can see from the tweets that people came out to support me. I know there are people for me, and it’s something I struggle with but the best way I’ve found to deal with it is “just keep going”. There are support people I  talk to. It’s just a struggle I have and I hate talking about it because of the stigma associated with it, but it’s who I am.

Moving Forward

So there’s a bit of an explanation, and hopefully, I’ll get back on the horse and start blogging again. I would like to share with you what I’m doing on the SMS Project, and also the final outcome of Huntley v NSW now that it is completely over. I would also like to share a photo journal of our trip to the Maldives in May. It has occurred to me that I should support Caryn in updating her even-more-out-of-date photoblog with our Maldives photos. And this weekend is WordCamp Sydney, so it’s a great excuse to dust off the blog and start writing again. 1

Note

  1. I have some other conference news I’ll share with you soon.

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